I feel kind of shy coming here after my grand declaration from earlier this week, mostly because I’ve had a difficult and very keyed up week filled with competing priorities that are stretching me tight like an elastic band. And they’ve kept me from what I would really prefer to be doing.
But let me say this, I’m so grateful to all of you for your comments and e-mails of support and love. Your ongoing kindness is humbling.
I’m not sure it would be very healthy to share the bits and pieces of my project here, at least not yet, because I’m trying not to over-commit myself. I truly want to take this one step at a time. But let me be clear, it is slowly coming together through both words on a screen and ideas racing around my mind. However, I promised myself (and my husband) that I wouldn’t let this get beyond the scope of manageable. Our lives are already firing on all cylinders and we are coming dangerously close to blowing a family gasket.
It will likely come as no surprise that I tend to tackle life head on. It takes me forever to make big life decisions, I waffle and worry to death, but when I do I have little patience in seeing them through. I want things to happen already and have difficulty setting them aside until I do. I’m not known for being flexible. It’s how I’ve lived my whole life and old habits die hard.
This week that means I’m struggling. I’m struggling to focus on my responsibilities, my joys, my dreams, my professional obligations and the countless other things that round out a ridiculously busy schedule. I can feel the spin of a building tornado and the impending collision of too many priorities. You may be able to tell by the pace of this post. A bit scattered, a bit frenetic.
So I’m thinking carefully about the lessons we’re learning this week in the Mondo Beyondo Dream Lab. We’re exploring the idea that our dreams never leave us and if we can be patient they will come, possibly in ways we never before imagined. It’s about trust and faith in myself and believing that I am meant for my dreams.
Until recently, I would never have bought into this. To me life was a race and only the fastest win. But I’m changing, little by little I discover beauty in the journey and learning to appreciate the sights along the way.